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Recount. Something I would like to do. Changes.

2010-01-12T03:10:00.000-08:00

Recount:
I had lessons at 12pm. To be exact, lectures. I ended school at 2pm. Only lectures today. No MSA lab today. Kinda good. My friend and I had MEE SOTO for lunch. A late lunch. We discussed about projects. God, so many project to complete. Some untouched. What a "great" group, seriously. Majority of the projects on hand had to be submitted next week. Lab test coming. Quiz coming. Oh my. I'm starting to worry I would fail a few subjects this semester. I can't handle.

However, that's my worry. I'm keeping hope. A hope to pass them all. I'm praying for a pass, just a pass. Maybe, just maybe. I'm planning to do those untouched projects all by my own. What to do? Such a group. I don't have much choices.

Changes
No offence to girls.
I know I had to keep quiet from now. Stop starting conversation or ask girls out. Wait for them to talk to me. Wait for them to ask if I'm interested in going somewhere. They would ask, if they want to.

There's reason to it. It's a long story. I wouldn't put it down here.

Yesterday's Recount

2010-01-11T17:42:00.000-08:00

I woke up early yesterday morning. I woke up at 6.30am. My mum woke me up, to carry out the plan that we agreed on the other day. That is to go for a run. I was pretty shock to hear that my mum wants to do that. But it's certainly a good thing.

Of course, if you thought now, my mum going to run? Nope, she is going to join me but she's going to walk. But for her, it's very good enough. :)

I told her after that run, I plan to do it at night from then on. She said alright. And she said she would still do that everyday. Wonder if she really did jog today.

Today, I started thinking of recipe to cook for the dinner on Friday. I now start to think, it should be some dish my parents would love to have. :) Gonna work on it now!

Today's recount, And my New Year's Resolution

2010-01-10T05:42:00.000-08:00

Well, since I just started off with my blog yet again. I should write about New Year's resolution. It's a bit late, I know it.

1st: Keep fit, go to the gym.
2nd: Run around my neighborhood often. 3 to 4 times a week will sound great.
3rd: Try and help my parents out, even in the slightest and smallest matter.
4th: Be more focus in my studies, as I really slacked too much. Time to wake up!
5th: Thinking of setting up a blogshop on my own. But doubting my ability to design. This would be a great first step towards my ambition. :D
6th: Control my temper. I have manage to do it perfectly well in the past few months. So now, I have a much better temper, able to think of why people behave the way they did first. And I am really happy to be able to do it. I just want to further improve it, as human should always look to improve himself.
7th: Go around Singapore, to each corner of it. Look into its nature.
8th: Get more into photography again. (although I have a natural shaky hands, not that I want to or nervous. It's simply natural)

I shall continue with my recount. I slept at 4am and woke up at 1pm. My dad went to buy chicken rice for my lunch. This slightest action really makes me feel that I should repay him back two times more than that. I want to do something for my parents. That's part of my resolution.

My dad and I went to my grandparents home to visit them. My mum went very early in the morning. It was again a bit of fun there. On the way there, my dad shifted the aircon all towards me. Yet, another slightest action that I feel care from.

I wanted to start my resolution going. We ate some curry puff at my grandparents home. I was still eating. My dad was jokingly asking me to throw the wrapper for him. I didn't hestitate, and threw it right away. :) I made some progress for my resolution.

After that, my mum and I brought my grandma down for a stroll.

Something deep in my heart

2010-01-09T11:26:00.000-08:00

I know I'm being a bit inconsistent in blogging. My bff will know that perfectly. If someone were to tag me often and read my blog. I will certainly be happy to stay consistent in blogging.

Well, I’m going to talk about something really deep in my heart. Something I never really share about. I’m the sort of person who cares about the very small detail about things with my family and friends. Not for relationship though. I’ve not been into any relationship before.

Talking about that, reminds me of her. A girl I liked for very long. Since I was Secondary 4, I first saw her on the bus and this made me take note of the time of the trip. I’m not the type who judges a person by the look. I would prefer a good character girlfriend than a plain pretty girlfriend. I will not talk about the long long process of knowing her. But, yes, I do get to know her and chat with her. I tried to ask her out. But couldn’t. I finally confessed to her, was rejected. I knew it’s time for me to put this down. But, no. I failed. The wound didn’t went off even after 1 year later. I tried to confessed to her again, and yes, I failed again. I know I really got to put it down. I try my very best to. And I can say recently I did! Though I still thinks of her at times. Not that I still likes her, but I liked that process of liking a person. It’s such a special feeling I couldn’t write it down on the blog.

Another incident hit me real hard. A girl told her boyfriend I have been stalking her at TP bus stop and I like her since primary school. I heard this from my bff, whom friend is her bf. I thought, I didn’t know she existed in primary school, so how would I like her. And PLEASE LAH. I was waiting for my classmates at the bus stop to go for lesson together. I thought, so what if she’s pretty. She isn’t pretty inside her heart after all. And I blocked and delete her everywhere.

And I’m going to end this post with a note. I still miss my late grandpa. His last words for me, “Ah Ming Ming, remember to eat every meal. If you want to eat something, just buy it. Don’t starve yourself.” I will never forget this. Loves you grandpa, you still lives in my heart. (*Ah Ming Ming is my old name, given by my late grandpa. Only he can still use it. I would ignore everyone who calls me by my old name. * :D)

Boring~!

2009-10-09T08:05:00.000-07:00

It's yet another boring day. I was waken up very early in the morning yet again. 8.45am. I slept late, at 3am. And that's 5 hours of sleep only! =O I definitely need more sleep, and I jolly know well that I should have slept earlier. I was waken up for one reason, to prevent from sleeping till too late, getting headaches more easily. It's for my own good. However, I do have the tendency of being frustrated easily, about almost everything around me. I want to change that, and that's my main goal of part of my ongoing improving myself to become a better person =D. I will do it~!

I had Lor Mee nearby my house, it's delicious! =D Then, I ordered Macdonald's for lunch, McSpicy. HEE! Well, I couldn't really find something to do. I watched some videos on the internet here and there, walk around the house, watch television. I was telling myself, " It's yet another boring day. What to do? I can't really help but stay bored. And watch the clock past slowly. "

Holiday is coming to an end real soon. I can't wait to see how my timetable for the new semester will be. Next week is the last week of holiday. Although I've been bored here and there, I really hoped that it could stay as it is. After all, a holiday is a holiday where people really looks forward to, and to relax. =D

Well this last paragraph is for Derek, who is sick right now. GET WELL SOON! =D

Today

2009-10-07T05:45:00.001-07:00

I went out today with Firdaus to Bugis to catch a movie, named Shorts. The reviews I read about the movie wasn't true at all. It said that it's not a very good movie, giving 2 and a half stars out of 5 stars. But I find it to be a very nice and funny movie, and well, it just proves to what I recently felt, reviews can't really be trusted.

Well, we brought the ticket, realising it's kind of empty. We thought it's okay before going in. While buying the drinks, I realised that a group of people looked over at us occasionally, most of the time, turning their heads over. It was a group of a few girls and a guy. I felt awkward about it, started thinking whether is it that I looked funny? Or just that I looked good(*Psst, it's a joke XD*)? I started to think maybe, just maybe they're watching the same movie as us? As we approach the theater, it became more and more true about my guess of us watching the same movie.

It was true! 0.0

We took our seats before they took their's. Yet again, I saw them look over again. I felt awkward again, and quickly look away, pretending that I knew nothing at all. Luckily for me, the movie started. Everything was back to what it was, though I felt awkward about another thing, that is the theater is a little too empty, only 12 people including my friend and I. That's a record breaking for me, mind you, it's really awkward.

Another awkward moment came about, as I saw 2 people exiting the theater through the entrance. So everyone followed until the staff stopped us to tell us politely that the exit is at the other door. Those group of girls and the guy tried opening the door but can't. I really wanted to laugh. But I didn't. The staff quickly came to help us, and it's so easy to do so.

We went for dinner at a indian place very near NAFA and Sim Lim Square and a building called Sunshine Plaza. We ate as usual, the Nasi Goreng Sadine. =D

And then... vroom, back we went home.

Today's come back on blog. Today's nightmare is about to start.

2009-07-28T18:09:00.001-07:00

It's been so long since I last blogged.

I am sort of ready and prepared to fail my CDS, entrepreneurship. I've been having problem with it. My group's business idea has constantly rejected. I can't start on my project. Submission date is closing down.

Today is sort of do or die day. I either fail or pass.

Its sort of sad for me. Very sad. It's also what I call, a nightmare!

Await for my results soon. =/

The long awaiting post!

2008-11-05T04:17:00.000-08:00

Its been hectic for me, ever since school reopens.

Tiredness wears me down. Whenever I reach home, I couldn't control my eyes from closing. I couldn't help it though my school timetable isn't the worst after all. Inevitable, as everyone clearly looks tired, and needs lots of rest.

I took yet another nap today, on the sofa while watching tv. I should rephrase it as, asleep instead of nap. Its not my first time though.

These contributed to the reasons behind my inactivity towards my posts on my blog. Nevertheless, I created this post.

I was awed yet again by that dazzling HP laptop. The design of it pulled me over to take a look after falling for it in Sim Lim Square last Saturday. I will see my luck on saving the money for it. Hopefully I can get it in no time!

Today's tiring day

2008-10-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

What a hectic day 20th of October is.
The quite scary timetable,
forces me back to staying late in school.
Monday and Thursday, I have to stay back in school from 9am to 8pm for lessons,
including 3 hours break.

Everyone was sleepy I guess?
I couldn't stay awake as soon as i reach home.
Took a quick nap till 10pm.
Watch television till 11pm.

Well, back to 8pm. (LOL!)
It was raining on my way back,
on board the bus number 8.
I had to run back home after those shelters.
Luckily for me, that distance is not very far.

And lastly, HOORAH!
Tommorrow there is no lessons for me.
Because, no lab!
So happy. =D

Yesterday, today recount...

2008-10-15T09:27:00.000-07:00

I was so nervous yesterday before the final theory test for my driving, reading through many times. Anyway I made through, with double checking. SO HAPPY! YAY!

I slept at 8pm yesterday, taking it as a nap. As I woke up, I found myself late at night. I couldn't go back to sleep after that, not at all! =.=" kinda too awake.

Driving lesson today. It was great, "S" and Crank courses isn't difficult anyway, kinda fun! =) However, something interesting happened during that period of time. An insect from outside stucked in front of me, I couldn't do anything since its outside. Luckily it shifted a little bit. It was hilarious. We laughed a while about it.

Anyway, school reopening soon. Get rid of my bored holidays!

Thursday Passport....

2008-10-03T00:27:00.000-07:00

Collected my passport yesterday,
kept with some great memories with my buddy, Derek.
It was great, packed with lots of fun.
We spent more than 1 long hours talking about doing crazy stuff.
Derek wanted to wear pajamas out, then decided to wear Secondary School Uniform out. =.="

Kinda crazy, I spent most of the time trying to tell him,
"Come on! I wouldn't do that"
I was forced to use my last tactic after that doesn't work.
I told him, its ok then. I shall go alone.

Finally he gave up! YAY!
And we went out wearing normal wear.
It was a pity Firdaus wasn't free.
Its Hari Raya! Of course he wouldn't be free right?
Never mind~ There is always next time =)

We ended up from eating Burger King meals to Chicken rice. LOL!
Its delicious though.
Thats when we are waiting for my turn to collect the passport.

Then, we made our trip to Suntec City for some window shopping, with many chats.
We came across a big Hulk mask and a big Hulk fist.
That reminds us of Benny. LOL!

The whole trip was fun. I love it. =)

The Monday Outing

2008-09-23T22:45:00.000-07:00

Monday night,
for a great gathering with my two best friends.
It was a great outing. An outing I really enjoyed, doesn't matter if its really warm in that food court, Banquet. Having dinner together was great!
The hunt for more food in Geylang Serai's Hari Raya sales was great though tiring.
Walking around the place, having the chats together, making the tiredness go off my mind fast.
Hope to meet you two soon again! XD

Boring~~

2008-08-28T20:36:00.000-07:00

Boring holiday,
Caught at home,
Nowhere to go.

Playing games,
Watching TV,
Getting boring.

I need to know,
What else can I do,
Other than all these.

Tell me now,
Tag me now,
As long as its a good suggestion!

Phelps!

2008-08-18T08:11:00.000-07:00

I looked at today's papers.

I looked deeper than what he has achieved. He silented critics, especially from his teacher when he was 11. His teacher said to him that he will never succeed as a swimmer.

Look at him now, he is the best ever swimmer and olympian in the history.

PHELPS! He worked his way man. I benchmarked myself to follow him, to silents those who looks down on me. I must silents them and said it in pride, I am successful now! And of course, thanks them for looking down on me to spur me up!

Fun Day!

2008-08-07T08:02:00.000-07:00

The fun day started, not very well. Why?

The day started with the listening test. Effcom. Sucks? Yeah, it sucks. But I still took it seriously, able to do it.

After which, we collected our Engine Fund quiz paper. I thought I would fail. However, I've gotten 31/40! Wah! I am so delighted!

We stayed back after school to study. Thats the fun part! We waited from 1pm to 3pm, as we booked the project room 10, from 3pm to 7pm. LOL! We are not that enthu. Just wanted to book long hours, as we never knows how long we will be there. We had fun with photos, using YiCheng's MacBook, built in camera. The photos are below! Some are so nice, some are artistic, some are funny!

Today's Big Day, Wrtoral Presentation!

2008-08-05T06:35:00.001-07:00

Today, the b-day! Big Day, in another words.

I was tortured by that tough and solid leather shoes, meant for crazy people to wear. Not that I am crazy. But, its too late for me, as I should have season it before wearing. So, its somehow my own fault.

Upon reaching the school bus stop, I saw Firdaus, at the bus stop, just wanting to have a glance on me. Meixin asked me why today I was so late? I said the shoes too hard. I can only manage to walk a step when in the past, I already walked 3 steps!

During the break, I told them that Itask is my limit. Due to that shoe again.

The big time has come! My turn to present my slides on Corruption in North Korea. i admitted that I shivered that little bit. That's natural. After all is over, we had a taking of photo spree.

Check this space out for the upcoming photos, after I have gotten the photos. :D

Loss of Memory Stick covered my emo by SHOPPING SPREE!

2008-08-03T04:08:00.001-07:00

I have lost my memory stick without knowing. It may be somehow in my uncle house. However, I just felt that I can't find it back anymore. Feeling emo at first.

However, it was quickly covered by my shopping spree. Yeah, I bought a shirt and a blazer/ jacket for my presentation on Tuesday! That adds up to my buying for the presentation. One whole set! I bought a blingbling for that blazer, a cap and a T-shirt.

Tommorrow, I gonna wear the new T-shirt and cap to school. Secret will be revealed tommorrow in school!

After all, that memory stick is just games.

Yi Cheng Birthday!

2008-08-01T22:22:00.001-07:00

K805 had fun on 22nd July, Yi Cheng Birthday.

Yi Cheng, me, Mei Xin and Patricia was attacked by cakes, as they all felt four of us had to be attacked since we four are always together.

Here are the photos.

Long Long Long...: August 01

2008-08-01T21:17:00.001-07:00

Its been so long yet again.

Let me talk about yesterday. I had a crazy thursday. Yeah indeed.

I planned a lunch with another two friends, meeting at mushroom. We went to Tampines Central for our lunch, deciding to go to KFC! I ate that Variety Value Meal. Its kinda ok? Still acceptable though.

After which, I begged them to accompany me till 3, as its still way too early. 1.52 pm. So, I decided to go and catch that bus 15 with them. I had no choice, but to wait for the bus 58, to go for my driving lesson number 10. I called my mum to ask if she was at home, as I didn't bring my keys. "Ask Alica" said Derek. Alica Keys. Yeah thats it. My mum was at home. I went to wait for bus 15 though stupid. Luckly 21 came first to save me from that joke. Although its too late.

I went home. 15 mins later, my mum ask me why I'm not going out yet? I just came back. OMG! Hahas.

I took taxi there. The fare is usually $8.40, but this time round, its cheaper. $7.90. I couldn't control myself, but speed to 60 or 70km/h before my instructor ask me to control my speed. He repeated that for millions of times!

My lesson ends, I am suppose to park the car at the correct place. This time round, a traffic jam in the circuit! Thats interesting. The traffic jam caused by a big big lorry, was way too long to imagine. As if we are buying the golden tickets to Charlie's Chocolate Factory. My instructor couldn't tahan, so he horned. The problem is solved! YIPPEE!!

I went to meet my parents for dinner after the lesson, suprise to see my Engine Fund Tutor near my house, what a shock!

Wahaha we ate Curry Fish Head! YUMMY!

The end of the crazy Thursday blockbluster.

What am I suppose to do??: December 15

2008-08-01T21:16:00.000-07:00

I am feeling so bored. I don't know what to do. There's no one I can chat to and there's no one I can go out with.

I am just lazing around,
Sitting on the nice, comfort chair.
Starring at the computer,
Not knowing what I should do.

Go out alone?
No there is no place I can go.
Play games?
No I had played those games all day long.

There's really nothing I can do,
But just sitting down and think what I should do.
This has wasted my days over and over,
Knowing that this wouldn't bring me too far too!

By ChinSian

I am going crazy!!: December 14

2008-08-01T21:15:00.000-07:00

Well, its been so boring nowadays, that I am almost going crazy soon. Failing to find a job is one thing. Getting hard to find friends to go out with is another thing. Choh Wai's reading of messages angers me.

Let me talk about my first problem. I have been finding a suitable job but failed. I went to 4 agencies of Kelly Services in Tampines, JMC Corporation in Peninsular Plaza and Recruit Express In Ngee Ann City and today, I went to Recruit Express in Tampines. I couldn't find a job. I cancelled a job that I have gotten a few weeks ago. Energie Eyecare. Pay is good. However, it seems difficult to sell a product of $680. And what's more? I got to move around Singapore not knowing where is my next location. So i quit after going for two sessions of training.

Derek and Firdaus have been crazy about playing frisbee, i went once. But felt its nothing much. Especially when Benny play a while don't want play then watch us, spoiling the plans. I couldn't find them out. Who am I going to go out with? I only have one good friend from primary school, Ka Jun, to go out with.

Choh Wai invited me to his company's event buffet on Wednesday. I at first told him ok, then an hour or so later, I told him that I don't know if I will be going or not and that I will confirm with him on thursday. On Thursday, yesterday I told him that I'm not going. Today, he said the ticket is out. I said okok, I will pay you. Then, I think through, its not my fault after all. And decided to sms him that I am not going to pay for his own fault. =(

Graduation Night On14 Nov 2007

2008-08-01T21:12:00.000-07:00

The day I will never forget indeed, its the graduation night. Photos at the end of this post.

I don't know for what Roy and I meet so early. Well, insane? Hahas. I saw Randal on the way to meet Roy at Pasir Ris MRT Station. He said WeiJie says he confirm Mr Siglap, at least top 10. Randal told me to convey some funny and weird messages that is to tell him that he confirm not even top 10 and ask me to remind him to buy 2 red wine. WeiJie says he going to buy and off he goes, coming back empty-handedly.

3.30pm, 14 November 2007. Yes, that is the time I met Roy when the Graduation Night starts at 6.30pm. Weird, as we reach Bugis, deciding to alight and have a walk around. I was wondering why on earth we went so early for? Nicholas called me 3 times, but I missed it, seems unable to hear any phone ringing, covered by the sounds of the train moving. BOMBOMBOM! It goes. I called Nicholas, thinking that he and WeiJie are in Bugis at that point of time. Little did I expect them to be in Tampines Mall. My jaw literally dropped to basement 2. We were at the Nation Library Board (NLB), wondering off Bugis when we decided to shop around Bugis. Weird?

We walked and found our way to IT Funan Mall. In we went, walking around with no idea what to do. In the end, I went for a bowl of minced meat noodle there as I did not had my lunch. And we went to Challenger, ending up playing games there. 6pm, We realised that time flies so fast, without any notification.

I bought a comb at Watson, knowing my hair went haywired.

We asked people around where Swissotel The Stamford actually was. Roy asked blindly around without getting an answer. I told him to look for the right person and said watch me. I asked a man crossing the road, at the side of the road, I asked him. OH MY GOD! I asked any guy, who politely answered me, telling us numerous times where it was, making sure we got it right. We were thankful to him, this time round. That's what I meant by asking the right person.
We went there, taking photos around. Mdm Zubaidah was shocked to see my hair dyed.

HAHAS.

I enjoyed it. I was sabohed by those round the table I was sitting in. They shouted, "YES AH! CHINSIAN!" when the last prize for the lucky draw came, I never win though. They tried many times, everyone looked at us, as we burst into laughter. 2 Small cakes for Barnabus. His birthday! AH HAHA. He won a prize in the lucky draw *CLAPCLAP*

I enjoyed the graduation video for our class, done by DEREK! MANONAL FILM our class joke, by Justin.

The best video.

Next, the video done by Ms Lim and Mdm Zudaidah. I was shocked where they dug the cute photo of me during sec 2 CCA Day for sec 1s to choose cca. THE HAPPY ONE they put.

We were suppose to dance in steps given by Mr Tharmen, misunderstood gone slowly, bits by bits. I was ok again with Derek and Firdaus, the best gift of the night. We ended in free dance, going up the stage. We surrounded Firdaus in circles, jumping round him, Too fast, I lost my balance, fell I went. Shafiq fell onto me. Hahas. I had fun though. We went home at 11.30pm, BENNY, ROY, ME and FIRDAUS sat at the back of Derek's mum's car. SQUEEZE!

I had fun. =)

Photos on Grad Nite! Class 5N2 of 2007!

Friends walked in and out anytime they want...: November 10

2008-08-01T21:11:00.003-07:00

What can I do when friends walk in and out all they want at anytime? I can do nothing but allow them to do so. I am always the one who goes up and say sorry even though most of the time its not my fault. What can I really do? My two best friends got angry over trival matter.Maybe I am really wrong but all they can do is to think deeper and understand how I feel. It seems that there is no place for me to go to and noone to go to throw out all my feelings. After all, they are never willing to share their problems with me and never willing to lend me a listening ear. It seems the almost the whole world is against me. What have I really done? They doesn't want to go for a job interview with me first before accompanying me to buy clothes for the graduation night. All I do is find my primary school best friend to go together. I accompany him and of course I cannot throw him aside. I told them early that its cancelled 4 to 5 hours earlier. What Derek done to me before I still remember, he suddenly cancelled the outings before when I already reach the place. I said never mind and proceeded alone.What have they done to me? Ignore me and behave differently. Its indeed not worth while to have done so much yet get this from them. I decided to walk out of their life from now.I still have two best friends after all. :)

ST Media Club Photography Course: April 21

2008-08-01T21:11:00.001-07:00

Hi. Yesterday, Derek said meet 2.10pm, when its already 2pm! WAH! I prepared after watching VCD, prepared and off i go, i reached at 2.15pm! Haha. SUPER!

We went, a pass-byer gave us wrong direction. Luckily we asked again after walking away from the SPH. We finally found the place.

Its a very funny course.

Derek got saboh by Mr Joe, after he's being discovered of looking at a chiobu . Luckily, I was discovered. *Laugh*

Class Bowling!

2008-08-01T21:10:00.001-07:00

Hi. erm, class bowling over long ago. Very long never update le.I still remember that i at first do not feel like going for the bowling at all. Mdm Zubaidah says just try. I tried, at first nervous. Second time I feel better. As a beginner, I only manage to hit the pins only in my fifth try. My first round, I got 42 points. Second round, 64 points. I gotten the " Most Improved Bowler". My group also gotten the highest point. Looking forward for term 3 class bowling.On the way home, We saw Ayuni. Where Firdaus, Derek and me alighted with her! Haha. We gone so HIGH!

Next time, I upload the pictures! Haha. I promise..

Ces't La Vie IV: March 04

2008-08-01T21:09:00.000-07:00

I am back after such a long time. Sorry once again. Friday is a great day, I get to go home earlier because of 52nd Honours' Day! At night, its Ces't La Vie IV (a school concert) at Singapore Poly! Its so crazy, I went to Derek's house with some friends after Honours' Day till 1.30pm. I went home to eat at 2, slowly and its 2.30pm when I'm finished with my lunch. I dozed off till 3.15pm, before going I prepare myself. I went with Firdaus to Downtown East to eat at 4PM! Its so crazy, I rested my stomach for only 1 1/2 hours. We went there and reach at 6pm. Its so pack already, we have to be seated by 6.30 and we are only allowed to go in at 6.30pm. SQUEEZE!When our school present the money of 3000dollars, the Minister of Defence stand next to my principal, Mr Ng. Its such a big difference in terms of height!When we went home, its 10pm. We had a "crazy" ride. I went high, very high. My friends made me high. So, do not blame me! HAHA!

Increasing Loneliness: February 02

2008-08-01T21:08:00.002-07:00

Last time, when i was in primary school, i had a lot of friends. Its really so much that I now need sometimes to recall their names except some. However, I still know their my friends. Of course some in my class now, I have known since primary school, one of them I know him since primary 1! Now, I am losing good friends even though some might still be at the same school as I do. I am used to loneliness. When I am secondary 1, I am in group of six. Now, they left school, some going to ITE, some going to Polytechnic, left with another one. We had tons of quarrelling that some have not been resolve. However, I am ok with all of them! Haha. I miss them now, as I feel so lonely in school. The amount of words I use in school has decrease tremendously!

This is the only place for me to throw my feelings at! Well, being the only child, I might get all I want. However, it makes me feel lonely. I now do not know who chat with even in MSN! Its not a good feeling. I start to have bad temper, frustrated with small matters. However, calm down fast, and regret fast.

It may sounds that I am so pitiful. However, I treat this as a test from the god, to success and treasure people around me. Right? Willing to be my good friend number 2? Tell me. I do not force. If you do not want, I am strong enough. Tell me what kind of person I am, honestly. OK? Looking forward to your comments!

Walking alone: November 29, 2007

2008-08-01T21:08:00.001-07:00

"Walking alone" is the scariest thing to anyone on earth. Here, the "walking alone" means loneliness. Well, it is common. However, do you know how it feels to be walking down alone? I do.

Can you imagine walking down a dark street alone? Its freaking quiet and scary. You might not feel the scariness but instead you feel the sadness. Does it sounds sad and sort of bad? Yes, but think carefully and look around. There will be surely people around you supporting you. Some do it quietly, hinting you. While others, advice, cheer and push you higher.

Why does you feel you are "walking alone"? Well, it might be you feel that people are insulting you, looking down on you and many other bad things. However, think first. Do other people experience all these before? YES! Of course everyone experience it before.

You just remember something. That is no one is perfect and keep on improving yourself. And your family and best friends is always around you. You will never ever walk alone. Try talking to someone. It works! I tried. Of course find someone who is trustworthy and willing to listen to you. Everyone experience low point/s in their lives. However, remember to stand up and continue walking after falling down. GOODLUCK!

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