I know I'm being a bit inconsistent in blogging. My bff will know that perfectly. If someone were to tag me often and read my blog. I will certainly be happy to stay consistent in blogging.

Well, I’m going to talk about something really deep in my heart. Something I never really share about. I’m the sort of person who cares about the very small detail about things with my family and friends. Not for relationship though. I’ve not been into any relationship before.

Talking about that, reminds me of her. A girl I liked for very long. Since I was Secondary 4, I first saw her on the bus and this made me take note of the time of the trip. I’m not the type who judges a person by the look. I would prefer a good character girlfriend than a plain pretty girlfriend. I will not talk about the long long process of knowing her. But, yes, I do get to know her and chat with her. I tried to ask her out. But couldn’t. I finally confessed to her, was rejected. I knew it’s time for me to put this down. But, no. I failed. The wound didn’t went off even after 1 year later. I tried to confessed to her again, and yes, I failed again. I know I really got to put it down. I try my very best to. And I can say recently I did! Though I still thinks of her at times. Not that I still likes her, but I liked that process of liking a person. It’s such a special feeling I couldn’t write it down on the blog.

Another incident hit me real hard. A girl told her boyfriend I have been stalking her at TP bus stop and I like her since primary school. I heard this from my bff, whom friend is her bf. I thought, I didn’t know she existed in primary school, so how would I like her. And PLEASE LAH. I was waiting for my classmates at the bus stop to go for lesson together. I thought, so what if she’s pretty. She isn’t pretty inside her heart after all. And I blocked and delete her everywhere.

And I’m going to end this post with a note. I still miss my late grandpa. His last words for me, “Ah Ming Ming, remember to eat every meal. If you want to eat something, just buy it. Don’t starve yourself.” I will never forget this. Loves you grandpa, you still lives in my heart. (*Ah Ming Ming is my old name, given by my late grandpa. Only he can still use it. I would ignore everyone who calls me by my old name. * :D)
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